It annoys me how early I woke up when I have NO morning classes. *i.e, today*. I can’t blamed it.. I slept E.A.R.L.Y. last night. Even my roomie was surprised when I dozed off while doing Physics.
I think I’m letting this feeling go away. ‘Fe Mao’, now you’re off for good in my ‘little schoolgirl crush list’.
I was very sure this was just a temporary fling, and I was glad that it’s true. :)
Btw, where is my twinnie? I didn’t see her online on her msn for these few days. =[
I spend the awesomest weekend with my sexy aiza. :D
Whenever I’m with her, I know either one or both of us will try something new. This time around, I was the one that was being adventurous.
I tasted ‘kepah’. Her mom cooked masak lemak. DELICIOUS!! I also tried helping the mom in the kitchen, I peeled the pucuk ubi..! I drank JUS KEDONDONG with Asam. HOME MADE YAW. FRESH JUICE. PICKED FROM THE TREE. I cleaned the fruits and Aiza did juice :D
Aiza took me a walk around her house. Her mom plants a lot of trees around the house. I’m not a good tree identifier. Aiza had a grreat laugh while I tried my best to identify the trees. Especially the ‘Mangga/Manggis’ incident. :p
Oh oh she has turkey!!! 2 turkeys!!! At her granddad’s old house. They scared the creep out of me. But they’re sooo ‘healthy’ if you know what I mean..?? =p
Aiza told me she gonna slaughter the turkeys and made it as Subway’s TURKEY TOAST. Aiza.. save some for me!!
We also filled each other’s lives with, G.O.S.S.I.P.S.
So, We’ve created ‘Fe Mao’. I think I’m gonna change it. It sounds awful. I want something that’s cute and truly defines ‘FE MAO’.
I think I’m gonna decorate my place a bit neat-er.
Just got the 1st warning from Madam. Apparently, to her, our room is messy. We’re not messy.. We just have LOTS of stuff. You have a girl from Kedah, Penang and Brunei here. What’d you expect ??
So, last night, me and Yana swept the room and arrange our bags and all.
Here what we found out :
1. We have a lot of hair in the room. So, I told Yana it’d be better if we all shaved our heads.
2. There was a drink underneath a bed. *God knows how long it has been there. LOL
3. Dust Dust Dust. EVERYWHERE.
4. There was a mug. Under the bed.
5. A lot of rubber bands in the room.
Oh, the list can go on and on. But I’d rather stop now.
I HAVE CHEM QUIZ TO DIE FOR. THE FIRST QUIZ..
Wish me luck.
Just got off the phone with my lovely qibash.
Gosh, I miss her so much. I need to see her this week.
Got lots and lots of catching up to do. That’s for sure =)
And I do hope my llama can make it too!
I know she’s having hols and all. So, now the purrfect timing for us to finally get together and things will hopefully will be like good old times. In our own syok sendiriness world. :)
1 day down, Plenty more to go. Should I go for it after this few days ??
The truth is, I’ve been feeling emo this week.
I just hope next week will be the totally opposite week for me.
I think I’m still not over it. It’s just hard to just let it go. Especially when it keeps on coming back and you’re just there to face it and can’t do anything about it. This bugs me the most. I can’t do anything about it but to just watch it pass me by and pretended as if everything is perfectly normal.
I don’t know how long I have to keep on being like this.
It..Hurts..So..Badly..
Ps : Or maybe it wasn’t about IT at all..!! Maybe it’s just my bloody hormone ‘finally’ trying to get right.
I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I feel of your heart
I taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Sing sha la la la
Sing sha la la la la
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love
It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all wrong, it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works when you're on
I swear, I’ll melt and totally will love whoever sings me this song.
I ain’t gonna lie. I’m a bit heart broken. Yes, I might look all mighty fine and content. But that’s just the outside. Inside, I’m torn bits by bits. There’s nothing I can do but just to pretend that I’m enjoying the ride of a lifetime. It’s sickening me. I don’t know how long I can stand being like this.
I know part of me would be very sad and I might break down and cry. There’s also a part of me would be very happy and wish it the best of luck.
I just don’t know how to face it. I have a grrreat instinct that *thethingwhichIcan’treallydescribe* will sort of come true. I can see it.
When the day come, will I be ready to accept it ?
I know I have to.
